Makes Me Wonder

Today's been a sad day. The world lost two icons, Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. Now in Farrah's case, it was eventually going to happen. However it doesn't make that situation any better. However, in Michael's case, no one ever saw this coming, nor was his chances of surviving cardiac arrest very good. Here's where you can check out some fast facts : http://ac360.blogs.cnn.com/2009/06/25/fast-facts-on-cardiac-arrest/

These events, however tragic, show that life is extremely precious and can be gone in a matter of seconds. All the grudges, all the hatred, what's the point of it? Yes, people can just be downright vindictive, cold, and heartless. People can do cruel things and they won't think twice about it.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that looking on my life, I need to find forgiveness for people that I haven't talked to, whether it had been a couple weeks or a few years. Life is too short to be mad at things that have happened in the past. Just gotta learn those lessons and move on.

This might sound kinda hippie-ish but maybe there just needs to be more peace, love, and understanding in the world that surrounds us.

Oh...by the Way...

I have jumped on board for a new adventure in the world of blogging. Me and that guy I cant stand A.J. have started a blog. Why I agreed, I have no earthly idea. Ha ha! But the point I'm making is you should check it out! http://arthur-n-alesha.blogspot.com/

One is the Lonliest Number

How can it be that you can stand in a crowd and feel so alone? I dunno how to explain it, but I know I feel it. Usually, I look forward to coming home to Picayune to get away from things up in Starkville and around Mississippi State. But I can honestly say that because of this lonliness I feel, I want to go away, far away. I want to be around my friends that I haven't seen in ages.

Honestly, being in Hattiesburg would suit me just fine. A lot of people I became friends with at Pearl River are there. I miss them.

Everyone's so Critical

Well, I shoulda seen it coming. I really shoulda. Thanks to the second blog that I wrote (thinking that no one would see it for one reason or another) there are two people not happy with me. One I could understand...maybe I did put a little too much info out there, but I was venting and ranting. The other...well that's a little sticky. I mean I can understand standing up for a friend. That's all well and dandy. But at the same time, I do need to let what I'm feeling out and I'm finding that writing is quite a stress reliever.

My intentions for this blog was never malicious. I just wanted to basically keep a journal, albeit a bit public, to let myself speak when I don't feel like using my voice. I'm sincerely sorry about how things happened, but I do feel like the damage is done.

Thinking on a Happier Note

So the last blog I wrote was a little intense. But now I'm gonna write on a happier note about what's going to be happening in my life in the near future. First, I'll be heading back to Starkville the first couple days in July. I get to see at least some of my State friends and boy do I miss them! Secondly, I get to start my Experimental Psych summer class and start work in the Problem Solving and Learning Lab. I know that it's probably just gonna be analyzing data, but that's okay cause in the fall, we're getting an eye tracker to play with! $30,000 worth of equipment and it's left in the hands of undergrads...it should definately be interesting. Lastly and most importantly, I get to see my Aj for the 4th of July. I'm really excited cause I haven't seen him since April. I just really, really miss him.

At the end of all this, I'm just telling myself..."Only 3 more weeks, only 3 more weeks, only 3 more weeks..." Hopefully they'll fly by, but if it's anything like the rest of my summer "vacation" then I'm just outta luck...

Cruel Summer - A Rant

*Disclaimer: There's a little mild language and is completely my personal opinions and feelings*


Summers are suppose to be a fun, relaxing, adventurous...right? Well this summer so far has been straight in the opposite direction. I won't lie, it was fine for a little while. I'll just go ahead and tell the story from my perspective. (Names have been changed just for the sake of things.)

Everything happened over just a matter of a couple days, but I'll keep the story short. First, I find out that my friend "Kim", who's married to "Steve", is having an affair with a guy named "Jack". "Jack's" ex-wife "Lauren", who left him for someone else, finds out about it (my theory), tells "Steve", and he kicks "Kim" out.

As you can see, I have NO reason to be in the middle of any of that shit whatsoever. However, I feel as if everyone (minus "Steve") wanted me to take their side but there's no way in hell I needed to/should have. All of them had it coming as I can see. If you're gonna be a cheater, don't brag about it and definitely don't cheat with someone ur ex-friend used to be married to.

And another thing, why blame me for something that not only you wished for, but were gonna do in the first place. So you were gonna leave him anyway. Yeah, it might suck if you don't get to do it on your terms, but don't get mad at the fact that it happened. If she really didn't want him to get pissed and leave her ass, she wouldn't have done the things she did. Now, I should have said something to her but I'm just the kind of person who doesn't want to tell people what to do, per se...maybe I need to work on that. However, don't get mad when you get what you wish for.

Pretty much, the point is since that has happened, I haven't really been hanging out with people. I'm sure I'll lose a friend, maybe two. But that happens to everyone. Anyway, I'm much more isolated from the people in this town. Sure, I've had the occasional visit with someone here and there, but otherwise I've been confined to these four walls. It gets pretty lonely, so I know I'll be much happier once I'm back in Starkville, where the people there are more on my level and I won't feel like I'm back in juinor high or high school.

So I'm Gonna Give This a Try....

Being bored makes you think of things to do that you thought you'd never do...so here I am, starting up a blog. I dunno how interesting my life really is gonna sound in words but I guess I'll give it a try. Hopefully you'll like it and maybe I'll actually keep it up. Wish me luck!!!

BTW...just in case you don't know...this is what I look like in black and white